Diffucult Expectations

A time I was expected to do something was when my granndma told me a couple weeks ago she was going on a buisness trip with her boss. I agreed to help babysit but I did not know I would be doing it all on my own. She did not give me much information until a couple days before, she said she was going to be gone for three days and for those three days she needed me to take care of my three brothers, the house, my son, and myself. This would not be as hard if I was not also going to school and starting a new job all at the same time. I tried to talk to her and explain that this was too much for me, that I thought I really needed someone in my family to help out or atleast be there for me if I needed soemthing. After talking to her for awhile she finally realized how I felt and asked my uncle and his fiance if they could please help me out. They agreed that they would keep the younger two, which are two eleven year old twin boys for those three days. Granted they will come home after school but then my uncle's fiance will pick them up after work and take them home with her. They will be the ones responsible for getting them up and off to school in the morning and also getting homework done and getting them to bed at night. This was a major relief hearing this because although I am sure I could of handled it all on my own if I had to, I am under less stress knowing they will be taken care of my someone other then me. Now I can relax a little more knowing all I am responsible for now is school, work, my son Jayden, and my fourteen year old brother Carlos.

Broken Promises

Ever since we were young kids my cousin, Alex and I, had always been really close. She was my bestfriend and we did everythihng together. That all changed though because she broke her promise that she would always be here for me through anything and everything. It all changed when I had my son Jayden. When I first found out I was pregnant she immedialely wanted to be his godmother and would text me everyday about him. It was exciting for me to know that she was still by my side even after she knew I was pregnant at 16 years old. Even though she would text me alot, I never really saw her though. She was always on and off with her boyfriend and it seemed that everytime they were on good terms I did not exist but as soon as they were fighting she would coming running to me. It was in those times that they were fighting that she would suddenly text me and want to come over. After awhile I became smarter and realized the game she was playing with me, so I eventually moved on and found someone who would be there for me no matter what the circumstances were. After all I was to become a mother soon and I could no longer waste my time on people that did not matter. My son is my world and no one comes before him. In my opinion as long as a mother has her children she does not need anyone else <3

Desperate Times Call for Desperate Measures

In my whole life I have experienced very difficult experiences but never as difficult as when my grandmother had received emergency open heart surgery. She had been in the hospital for a couple weeks because she had woke up one night and simply could not breathe. While being in the hospital the doctors ran a series of tests and came to the conclusion she needed emergency open heart but because of other complications that had been coming up she had to wait a week before needing that surgery. While in the process of waiting for her surgery she almost died three different times. All three times she had suddenly got a weird feeling and then within seconds could not breathe. One of those times I was the only one there with her. We had been in her room and I was trying to get her to finally eat something because she had been refusing to eat for while. All the sudden she got this strange look on her face and told me to please go get her nurse. i immediately ran to get her nurse and within minutes she was being rushed up to the ICU floor and could not breathe. It was the hardest thing I ever experienced in my whole life, i never thought I would see something happen in a matter of minutes and have it affect me for the rest of my life. She was deperately trying to regain her breathe while using a machine but it was not working for her at all. She had been too worked up and what was making it worse was me being there. I was crying and so terrified I could not help but to freak out, but I did not realize the negetive impact it had on her. She was so focused on me being scared that she could not calm herself down to be able to let the machine do it's job. I finally decided that it was probably in the best interest for me to leave the room. That for me was so hard because I did not want to leave her side I was terrified it might of been the last time I saw her alive. But I knew if I wanted anything to get better it was best if I was not there in front of her crying and freaking out the way I was. So I left the room and went to go sit in a private conference room down the hall. This for me had been a very desperate situation, and I had to make a desperate decision to leave her side. When she finally calmed down and was able to breathe again I then realized no matter how hard that was for me to leave her, it was definitely worth it.